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Long day

Hey girls!

I hope all of you are doing well. I didn't have time to get on here yesterday because I had such a long day at work. I worked almost nine hours at the salon, then I had to go to a lotion training class for another two hours. I did not want to be there, and I wanted a cigarette so bad the whole time I was in there. But...in the end we got tons and tons of free lotion samples, so I was happy about that.

So I've been taking those slim quick pills for a couple days , and I know I haven't  lost any weight, but I do know that my stomach has been pretty messed up ever since I started taking them. I've just been feeling generally sick all the time. But...if it means that I'll lose weight, then I'm ok with it.

If you don't already know, I work at a tanning salon...and we have a little cafe next door that lets us eat there for free. So yesterday I got this spicy chicken wrap, and ate about half of it really fast, then I decided I didn't want it anymore...so I went into the bathroom and threw it up. I was hoping that my boss wouldn't wonder where I was cause I was gone for a few minutes, but she was none the wiser, and I got to get rid of my lunch.

So anyways, hopefully today I won't eat any of the free food from next door. At least I don't eat the cookies from there anymore, because I bet they're packed!! with calories. I'm finally starting to get some things done in the wedding planning category, so I'm excited about that. I just need to lose about a million pounds before I even step foot into a bridal shop. Cause believe you me, I will not be trying on a dress with all this lard. My brother got married a few years ago and his wife wore a size 18 wedding dress. GROSS!!!!! She looked so fat and ugly on her wedding day, but I want to look tan and more importantly, skinny as hell!!! Do good today girls, I love you all!

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Fun with the Soon-to-be In-Laws *sarcasm*

Hello Lovelies!!

So...last night was noooot fun. I went to my fiance's mom's house because she was having a birthday dinner for his brother. So I told my fiance P before we left that I had just had a bunch to eat before he came home. When we got to his mom's I was all uncomfortable and wanting to go home, and hungover. So we sit down to eat and I see a small bowl of salad in front of me, and P gave me a breadstick and passed me a bowl of spaghetti. I took one small spoonfull of spaghetti, and P was like "is that all you want?" and I was like "yeah, I told you I just ate before we came over". And then I ate a few bites of my salad, a bite of my breadstick (yuck), and like two bites of spaghetti. Then I just pushed it around on my plate and kept drinking water.

So after dinner P's mom pretty much called me a fucking cow. She didn't mean it the way it sounded, but it sounded like she was calling me a fat-ass. So that really pissed me off and I was like, "ok, I wanna go home now", but P was like, we have to stay for the cake. So she brings out this Pineapple upsidedown cake, and I was like "no". So she's cutting it and put a piece in front of me, and I just slid it over to P. She was like "oh you don't want any cake?" and I was like thinking in my head 'how is she gonna offer me cake after calling me a fatass? I'm not gonna eat that shit'. So I didn't eat any cake, and I made P take us home as soon as he finished his.

So anyway, that was my lovely *sarcasm dripp dripp* evening with P's parents. I'm never eating again in front of his family. I hate eating in front of people anyways, but now I can't do it in front of his family at all.

REMEMBER!!!!!!! If you have Showtime, MK makes her debut appearance on the best show ever, WEEDS, tonight!

Alright my lovelies, have a good day, stay strong!!

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I hate hangovers

Hello my beautiful darlings!

I hope you are all doing well today. I myself, am not feeling so great. My fiance's brother's birthday was yesterday, so of course we went out to the bar. I got way too many of a drink called 'a boot to the head', and it has like 7 different liquors in it, and tastes like fruit punch. After I drank like a shit-ton, I went and threw up secretly in the bathroom at the bar cause I was afraid of all the calories from the alcohol, so at least I got rid of some of them. The worst part was that I had to work at 8am and I felt like shit the whole time.

So I've been taking the Slim Quick pills for two days now, and I can tell that they give you some energy, but I have to wait at least like a week to see if I get any results from them. If these don't work super-well, I'm gonna try Hoodia cause a few of you have told me that it works pretty well. Maybe I'll do both at the same time.

Have any of you taken more than one kind of diet pill at the same time? I don't know if that would make them work even better, or not. If any of you have, please let me know.

Ok, so I work at a tanning salon and it drives me nuts because not only am I the palest person that works there, I'm also the fattest (at least I'm also not the ugliest, cause there is a girl there that's pretty ugly). So yeah, I feel like shit whenever I'm at work cause I look at all the other tan, pretty girls, and wish I could be like them. Hopefully I will be. I want to be the skinniest girl there! And I'm gonna do it damnit!

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Yay for paychecks

Hey girly girls

So...I wanted to thank you for leaving me love on my return to xanga. I really need to get myself back on track hardcore before my wedding next August. So I got my paycheck today and my fiance told me I could go grocery shopping before he comes home from work! So that means I can buy laxies and diet pills. I think I'm going to buy the slim quick pills. I hope that they work well.

Yesterday, I didn't eat all day, but then at the end of the night I ended up eating a Frosty from Wendy's...damn. I was on my period and had wanted one sooo bad, but I didn't want to eat  the whole thing, so I shared most of it with my fiance. I'm still pissed that I ate it at all though. Today I've had half of a tuna salad sandwich and diet sprite, so I'm doing ok, but I bet the sandwich wasn't the best choice. But I get to go grocery shopping, so I can pick out some foods that I know are really low cal.

That's all for now. I gotta go spread some love around to all of you before I head off to the store.  Stay strong everyone!

Mia loves you, but Ana loves you more...

***Quick update***

I went the the store and bought that slim quick stuff. I'm going to start taking it tomorrow. I'll let you all know if it works!

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After a year of no posting...I'm baaaack!!

Hey girlies!!!!

I am so glad to be back. I know I haven't been on in like a year, but I need to get back on here and get back on track, and get the support of all you wonderful girls. Ok, so basically I stopped getting on here so much because my parents were getting suspicious, then after I moved out, I didn't have a computer and didn't want to log-on with anyone else's computer.

Then something wonderful happened to me...I found the best guy in the world and got engaged in March!! So the good news is, I'm getting married. But the bad news is...I'm getting married in a little less than a year, and I need to lose soooooo much weight before my wedding. I don't want to be a fat cow on my wedding day. I need help getting back on track and getting motivated again to do as well as I used to. It's like when you get in a comfortable relationship, you eat...which I did. I gained about 5 pounds since the last time I've been on here, but I have lost 3 of them, so I'm going in the right direction, but I need to loose tons of weight by August 30th next year.

Something bad has happened with my fiance though. He knows that I "used to" take laxatives and purge, but he didn't think I did anymore. Well last month he found my laxatives and got really mad and flushed them all. Then a week or so ago, he found out that I'm still purging after I eat and got upset and  told me not to do it anymore. So...what are some ways that I can sneak around eating when he's home? Any girls out there living with a boyfriend/husband that you hide this from? Help...he can't know I still do this!

So...question...what kind of diet pills work the best? I used to take green tea pills all the time, but I've found they don't do enough for me. I want to know what the best pill out there is that I can buy at the store. I don't care how expensive, I need to find the best diet pills out there. So if any of you have any suggestions as to really good diet pills, please let me know.

So anyways, I'm going to be getting back on here more often like I used to. I hope that I will find support through you girls like I did before, because you all are a really big help!